Trick or Treat
Posted by Comman_Anomaly | Posted in | Posted on Friday, October 30, 2009
Tomorrow I'm handing out candy at my brother's house in town.
I'm excited but also nervous that this may be one of those times where I'm all geared up to do something social & when it happens I'm shy & agitated.
But I'll try, they're only children after all. All I have to do is smile & say "Great costume! Are you a witch?" I can do that, can't I? And besides, I'll be behind a wig & costume, Cleopatra to be precise. If my "wall" (my overwhelmingshyness, it is a brick wall) gets in the way I will be extremely angry. Angry that this stupid problem is inconveniencing me, angry that is may stop me from having fun. I want to smash that wall, I want to break it like Berlin Wall.
Revolution. No more tyranny, no more isolation, no more sadness. I want it to crumble, I don't want to have a door, I don't want it to have a hole, I don't want IT at all. No wall, no shyness, no fear.
I want a treat, not a trick. I will be standing at my wall saying trick or treat, if it says trick I'll say "wrong answer!"
Confidence & assertion, not typically a characteristic of me, but only because of the wall.
I'm excited but also nervous that this may be one of those times where I'm all geared up to do something social & when it happens I'm shy & agitated.
But I'll try, they're only children after all. All I have to do is smile & say "Great costume! Are you a witch?" I can do that, can't I? And besides, I'll be behind a wig & costume, Cleopatra to be precise. If my "wall" (my overwhelmingshyness, it is a brick wall) gets in the way I will be extremely angry. Angry that this stupid problem is inconveniencing me, angry that is may stop me from having fun. I want to smash that wall, I want to break it like Berlin Wall.
Revolution. No more tyranny, no more isolation, no more sadness. I want it to crumble, I don't want to have a door, I don't want it to have a hole, I don't want IT at all. No wall, no shyness, no fear.
I want a treat, not a trick. I will be standing at my wall saying trick or treat, if it says trick I'll say "wrong answer!"
Confidence & assertion, not typically a characteristic of me, but only because of the wall.
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