Not THE test, but a good one
Posted by Comman_Anomaly | Posted in | Posted on Wednesday, October 28, 2009
When I took this test it was the very first time I had heard of Avoidant Personality Disorder.
My result on Avoidant was high, but that didn't phase me too much. It was when I read the description of it & read the part about elaborate fantasy lives that I thought "Oh yeah that's probably what I have." I know my shyness is not normal, I know I just know it's AvPD, but why am I making such a big deal out of it?
I must sound like such a hypochondriac, like "Oh, this is MY illness - I'm an Avoidant!" I'm not proud to have it, it's just nice to have name for for my oddities.
And besides I've looked at all the other similar "disorders"
Paranoid Personality: I'm a little paranoid, but it doesn't keep me awake, I'm not suspicious of everyone.
Schizoid Personality: One big difference; Schizoids don't exactly want social relationships, I yearn for them.
Dependent Personality: I'm afraid of having to make it on my own yes, I'd rather stay a kid sometimes, but on the other hand I want to be self-sufficient, I want to move to France & live all by myself, lol.
Schizotypal Personality: Are you freaking kidding me?
Social Anxiety: It's too mild, and I do stuff like watch the reaction of people I'm talking to & well of course the fantasies, it's just more severe than that.
Now, if you would like to hear me go on even more about how I have AvPD then continue to read, if not & you see no point in me pointing out that it doesn't matter than you may exit.
It also happens that I have always been interested in psychology so this comes naturally.
Although one thing I do not have is panic attacks, I have never had one. I have had anxiety attacks where I've been breathing heavily & quite upset, but that is not a panic attack.
I remember a year ago I signed up to take some Summer classes at a church for photography & some other stuff. After I had already been to some of them I had become quite overwhelmed by shyness that I was sitting on my bed one night thinking about how I didn't want to have to go back there & feel self-concious around all those other kids & I started breathing heavily & saying "Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh My God. Oh my God."
I haven't had alot of them, probably because I avoid them. Hahaha.
I also have a habit of sometimes agreeing to social things & swearing to myself that I won't be shy, I tell myself I'll be like I am here, with my (close, live-in) family & then I am never able to do it & feel like a failure & all the like.
Here are my quiz results:
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
Every one of those I agree with it so happens.
I f-ing hate it, I sometimes wish I were Narcissistic or Histrionic. Those are alot more interesting, I'd have more friends & would probably be an over-achiever than one who's scared of achieving too much ('cause then things will get bad!).
My result on Avoidant was high, but that didn't phase me too much. It was when I read the description of it & read the part about elaborate fantasy lives that I thought "Oh yeah that's probably what I have." I know my shyness is not normal, I know I just know it's AvPD, but why am I making such a big deal out of it?
I must sound like such a hypochondriac, like "Oh, this is MY illness - I'm an Avoidant!" I'm not proud to have it, it's just nice to have name for for my oddities.
And besides I've looked at all the other similar "disorders"
Paranoid Personality: I'm a little paranoid, but it doesn't keep me awake, I'm not suspicious of everyone.
Schizoid Personality: One big difference; Schizoids don't exactly want social relationships, I yearn for them.
Dependent Personality: I'm afraid of having to make it on my own yes, I'd rather stay a kid sometimes, but on the other hand I want to be self-sufficient, I want to move to France & live all by myself, lol.
Schizotypal Personality: Are you freaking kidding me?
Social Anxiety: It's too mild, and I do stuff like watch the reaction of people I'm talking to & well of course the fantasies, it's just more severe than that.
Now, if you would like to hear me go on even more about how I have AvPD then continue to read, if not & you see no point in me pointing out that it doesn't matter than you may exit.
It also happens that I have always been interested in psychology so this comes naturally.
Although one thing I do not have is panic attacks, I have never had one. I have had anxiety attacks where I've been breathing heavily & quite upset, but that is not a panic attack.
I remember a year ago I signed up to take some Summer classes at a church for photography & some other stuff. After I had already been to some of them I had become quite overwhelmed by shyness that I was sitting on my bed one night thinking about how I didn't want to have to go back there & feel self-concious around all those other kids & I started breathing heavily & saying "Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh My God. Oh my God."
I haven't had alot of them, probably because I avoid them. Hahaha.
I also have a habit of sometimes agreeing to social things & swearing to myself that I won't be shy, I tell myself I'll be like I am here, with my (close, live-in) family & then I am never able to do it & feel like a failure & all the like.
Here are my quiz results:
Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
Every one of those I agree with it so happens.
I f-ing hate it, I sometimes wish I were Narcissistic or Histrionic. Those are alot more interesting, I'd have more friends & would probably be an over-achiever than one who's scared of achieving too much ('cause then things will get bad!).
I hope you get to respond, after readibg this entry I also took the test and here's what I got
Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
I actually like living as my other self,it does get boring though. I hope I hear from you