Not THE test, but a good one

Posted by Comman_Anomaly | Posted in | Posted on Wednesday, October 28, 2009

When I took this test it was the very first time I had heard of Avoidant Personality Disorder.
My result on Avoidant was high, but that didn't phase me too much. It was when I read the description of it & read the part about elaborate fantasy lives that I thought "Oh yeah that's probably what I have." I know my shyness is not normal, I know I just know it's AvPD, but why am I making such a big deal out of it?
I must sound like such a hypochondriac, like "Oh, this is MY illness - I'm an Avoidant!" I'm not proud to have it, it's just nice to have name for for my oddities.
And besides I've looked at all the other similar "disorders"

Paranoid Personality: I'm a little paranoid, but it doesn't keep me awake, I'm not suspicious of everyone.
Schizoid Personality: One big difference; Schizoids don't exactly want social relationships, I yearn for them.
Dependent Personality: I'm afraid of having to make it on my own yes, I'd rather stay a kid sometimes, but on the other hand I want to be self-sufficient, I want to move to France & live all by myself, lol.
Schizotypal Personality: Are you freaking kidding me?
Social Anxiety: It's too mild, and I do stuff like watch the reaction of people I'm talking to & well of course the fantasies, it's just more severe than that.


Now, if you would like to hear me go on even more about how I have AvPD then continue to read, if not & you see no point in me pointing out that it doesn't matter than you may exit.
It also happens that I have always been interested in psychology so this comes naturally.

Although one thing I do not have is panic attacks, I have never had one. I have had anxiety attacks where I've been breathing heavily & quite upset, but that is not a panic attack.
I remember a year ago I signed up to take some Summer classes at a church for photography & some other stuff. After I had already been to some of them I had become quite overwhelmed by shyness that I was sitting on my bed one night thinking about how I didn't want to have to go back there & feel self-concious around all those other kids & I started breathing heavily & saying "Oh my God. Oh my God. Oh My God. Oh my God."
I haven't had alot of them, probably because I avoid them. Hahaha.
I also have a habit of sometimes agreeing to social things & swearing to myself that I won't be shy, I tell myself I'll be like I am here, with my (close, live-in) family & then I am never able to do it & feel like a failure & all the like.

Here are my quiz results:

Paranoid: Low
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial:
Low
Borderline:
Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic:
Low
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Every one of those I agree with it so happens.

I f-ing hate it, I sometimes wish I were Narcissistic or Histrionic. Those are alot more interesting, I'd have more friends & would probably be an over-achiever than one who's scared of achieving too much ('cause then things will get bad!).

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I hope you get to respond, after readibg this entry I also took the test and here's what I got

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: Moderate
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Very High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

I actually like living as my other self,it does get boring though. I hope I hear from you

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