Bitter & Tired
Posted by Comman_Anomaly | Posted in | Posted on Wednesday, December 30, 2009
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Considering the whole higher power complex, the magic has gone out of it for me.
Why must this always happen? Why must things burn out? The magic & calming peace of being one with my surroundings & with the power around & in me has burnt out.
I just don't feel it in the way I did. I try, I try to feel the peace of it all but it comes as quickly as it goes. I don't know if this is me just not harnessing it or not, but I do know that I have been bittered all this soul-searching. But can't my HP break through the bitterness? Or is it my job & bla bla to break through? Do I get the magic back, the colorful serenity or should I not expect that again & accept what I get?
Why must this always happen? Why must things burn out? The magic & calming peace of being one with my surroundings & with the power around & in me has burnt out.
I just don't feel it in the way I did. I try, I try to feel the peace of it all but it comes as quickly as it goes. I don't know if this is me just not harnessing it or not, but I do know that I have been bittered all this soul-searching. But can't my HP break through the bitterness? Or is it my job & bla bla to break through? Do I get the magic back, the colorful serenity or should I not expect that again & accept what I get?